I can’t decide on a topic for this post. I haven’t really writen anything in awhile and now I got a lot on my mind. So hopefully this sorta flows, if not I really tried.

I am more valuable then the sun. This is what I have come to realize. I believe God created the most beautiful, complex, and valuable things in order in genesis. So humans are the most valuable to Him because they were made on the 6th day. Women are the most beautiful…hands down, they were made after Adam and they were the last things made. More beautiful then everything on this round ball. This makes sense in my mind, so I also am wondering if the heavens are simple or something because he made that and the earth first. Idk really, this is just my idea. O and did you know that Adam named Eve. And he didn’t name her untill after the fall? why not, why didn’t she need a name… or else she just messed it all up before Adam had a chance to give her a name… haha… women screw everything up… just playing.

So I am more valuable then the sun. I know this, but then at the same time I am sorta not in the mood for God. It sounds terrible, and I know that I am happiest when I am surrounded by God. But I just sorta want to keep my distance, the world is getting to me maybe. I don’t know, its very stupid, but it is how I have felt the past week. I’m struggling to read books I once loved, books that intrest me. I just don’t want to take the time to read them even if the do interest me.

Now this does not tie in with anything, but I think we have to learn to love. Recently I have learned to love different kinds of music. For some reason I started listening to Bob, and I learned to love him. But only because I saw other people love him. I am now learning to the the avett’s. Only because Kim and Marya are in love with them. We learn to love. We learn from the people around us, the things we see, and from the God who loves us. Once a man told me he did not know what love was untill he had his first child. This man was married, he lived life to the fullest, he was a Christian. His first real encounter with love was because of something so precious that he made. Something that he would give his everything for. he never knew what love was, he never knew untill he created something. This is how God loves us, but so much more. He creatted us and he loves us just that much more. And it is just crazy to think he didn’t think that getting married or having sex was his greatest form of love. It is just so nuts to think about. He was shown to love by God. Shown the value of his child, and the pain of losing a child also…

So this was all over and sorta a wierd ending I guess, but it has been my past week. The stuff that has been in and out of my head.