I wish I knew what was going on. I don’t understand why I am feeling like this. I don’t know what I want or what I need. I don’t know what to do, what are You calling me to do? Why do I feel like crap? I thought I worked all this out already, I thought my loneliness was gone, I thought I didn’t care about anything else but You. Than what is my problem? What do I need to give? How can you use me? I feel worthless, I feel like I know nothing. What I feel called into I also feel like I suck at. I see all these missed opportunities. I see myself failing over and over again. What do You want me to do? Should I read, should I cry? What do You want me to do? I am dissatisfied with myself, with my life. I don’t understand You at all. I want to and I desire to, but more I look the harder it is to see Your face. I just want to give up at times and say FML. But I know You called me to do greater things and You chose me. I don’t know why though.

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