I never really know where life is going to take me; I guess no one really does. Heck I couldn’t even tell you where these three paragraphs are going to take me. That’s the scary thing, we never know, and we never have any control. Life is just a big trust fall in a way. We are told just to keep falling and hope and pray that God will catch us like He promises. I always thought I was pretty good at trusting God, but recently I’ve started to reevaluate that idea.

Sometimes God gives you crazy ideas. That is if you are open to it, and sometimes even if you’re not. Well I guess you could say I got one of those crazy ideas a few months ago. For some reason I’ve felt God calling me to go backpacking this summer. Not just some ordinary backpacking adventure, but instead going throughout the U.S. Now you have to understand I have a great job as a camp counselor. I loved it there last year, I grew so much in my faith, and I helped impact some kids lives. I mean you can’t beat that, or so I thought. Instead God wants me to go out on a serious limb, what’s new…

Several months have passed by and I don’t feel any closer to making this trip a reality. I honestly don’t know where to turn. I’ve asked a few of my close friends to pray about joining me and so far no one has felt called. This is where trust comes in you could say. I’ve just felt very discouraged lately about this whole trip and in the back of my head I know the easy way out is waiting for me. Camp is there for me, but if I don’t take the job within the next week I’ve lost my back up plan. Trust is the word. I just want more reassurance; I just want to know completely that everything is going to work out, but I guess that isn’t trust is it?

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