My heart and soul desires what my flesh repulses.
Constant struggle, constant pain.
It is a process of reform,
a process of change.
But the sorrow is great when I look at my soul.

Sin covers my being. Great darkness inside.
I hope and long for something more.
I pray to be saved from myself,
but nothing seems to change.
I only see death in me covering the light.

Joy comes around, but death stays.
All I want is to know love.
All I want is to give my life, but my flesh resists.
Pain and struggle.

It’s a process that must happen,
but I refuse to embrace.
I want to run and hide; I want to escape.
I want to be made whole, but I can’t handle the pain.

Truth mixed with grace, feels like truth mixed with truth.
Grace is here, but hard to see.
Where is the fruit?
Where are the deeds?
I know He is near, but the truth hits harder.

I want to obey but I can’t;
I just can’t on my own.
And I try to give up.
I try to give in,
but all I can see is sin.

I need You,
I need the pain,
I need the sorrow,
It is what I need to find You.

Lord help me through my struggle.
Give me the strength to pursue.
Help me help others.
Guide me throughout my days.
Help me love You.
Help me need You.

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